On the 18th May I saw my chest consultant and was given news that really shouldn't of come as a suprise but it did. I think hearing said to me, to my face has forced me to have to face my situation and it's hard. And it hurts, a lot. It's difficult to come to terms with and there has been a lot of tears as I have tried to come to terms with my situation and get my head round it, which often results in it all spilling out my ears. I realise now that I have and always will have a "life limiting disease" which will impact my life on an almost daily basis not just I'm terms of the medication I need to take but also the symptoms I will have to live and cope with. I know many people have to face far worse and I do not want to come across as someone full of self-pity with a "woe is me" attitude!
I will post more about it at a later date but, reflecting upon it I relise that the the time has come to change my outlook on life and That this should be reflected in my blog. For some time I have felt that my blog should be more encompassing of my whole life particularly as my studies and reflection upon then forms only a small part of this blog. This is not to say that my blogs focus will change to me asthma, rather the focus will be on living every aspect of my life in light of what my consultant told me. I hope this makes sense.
Watch this space, and just to note the blog web address remains the same though the title will not.
It's a shock to be told these things - to be confronted by the reality of your situation. It's bloody difficult. I'm with you all the way though, and will always do what I can to help however I can and whenever I can. For now, if you what you need is to let it spill out of your ears then let it spill. I'll scoop it up and hold onto the mess for you.
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