Recovery

I am on the slow but difficult road to recovery. I am realising that the road is long, has many twists and turns, is uphill and has a few boulders along its path.


First things first. I am I still off work? Yes I am and very reluctantly but on seeing my GP on Monday he said that my left lung still sounded inflamed so issued me with another sick note for another week. I get the general impression that some people really do not understand what asthma can be like, my friend K asked me last week if I would mind doing a 140 mile trip for her (something which I referred to in my last post) and my sister has suggested that I use the time wisely and spring clean my flat. It seems to of escaped her notice that the reason why I am on the sick is because breathing is presenting something of a challenge. She has also formed the idea that the reason why my asthma is as bad as it is, is because I am unfit. her opinion is that if started jogging and swimming then my asthma would pretty much go away. I wish and I am sure that there are many other asthmatics who wish that fact to be true.

I am doing more than I was last week but by the tea time I am pretty exhausted and need an hours nap. I have decided to take three weeks off my studies and have told my tutor of my intentions he was very understanding and questioned "had I being overdoing it?" well actually that might possibly of contributed in someway to everything going belly up.

Yesterday I had to attend an appointment at the rheumotology department of the local hospital and was given a steroid injection guided by ultra sound in my hip, very uncomfortable and that uncomfortableness has continued into today. I can only hope it works.

On Friday I am back to the chest clinic to see my consultant Dr A he's a great doctor and I have a few questions to ask him and we need to form a plan of action of the way forward.

Recovery is not just physical though, it's also mental. A fact often either forgotten or ignored by those who care for me. I am not just an illness I am a person with feelings, a life and friends. I hurt, I get scared, I feel frustration, get angry and a whole host of emotions that I have experienced over the previous few days. I was warned to expect it but even so when it hit I didn't expect me to completely overwhelm me the way it has. It is this part of my recovery that I am really struggling to cope with.

On a brighter note as a result of my recent experiences I have finally decide to commit to doing something I have wanted to do for years and that is raise funds for Asthma UK to that end I plan to do a parachute jump in tandem from 10,000 feet very scary. Watch this space for further details.