Four weeks ago I submitted my semester A essay, an essay that accounts for 75% of my year mark. An essay that has a reputation as a bit of a bitch. Last year only one person scored over 50% and all admitted struggling with it (I did the summer school a year early as it would clash with my sisters wedding) so I was dreading this essay. I was already miles behind due to my health problems and felt like I was wading through treacle then in early January my friend B was admitted to hospital and was very poorly for a few days placing me further behind, though I sat at her bedside while she was sleeping and studied. This is not a complaint aimed at B, she is an amazing friend and my friends will always come first however, it made things a bit more complicated. What made things even more difficult was the fact Britain was in the grip of "the big freeze" leaving my car was stranded at the side of the road like a beached whale thus forcing me to resort to using public transport meaning that what was usually a 15 minute drive to the hospital took over an hour.
I battled on with the essay but really struggled with it often crying with frustration, I spoke to my tutor who very kindly offered to bend the rules a bit and allow me an extension but I slept very little and ended up exhausted but submitted it was. By the time it was submitted I was already starting to feel the first effects of the chest infection that was to put me in hospital a few days later.
I have been waiting anxiously for my results since then, knowing that I could not face going through it all again if I had to resubmit it but knowing that I would have no choice but to do otherwise. My feeling was that I had passed, just. A fortnight ago my tutor e mailed me to say that I had passed but wouldn't release the mark to me until the external examiners had met, that set alarm bells ringing. My thinking was, and I shared my thoughts with B that if I had passed I had just passed and that is why they had not released my marks to me for they were concerned that if they told me my mark and then the external examiners down graded my mark I would of had my hopes dashed, being told I had passed only to be told a few days later sorry no you haven't and you will have to resit it.
Today an e mail landed in my in box. What I read left me gobsmacked and shocked, so shocked that I promptly emailed my tutor to ensure that the contents of the email was was true. I have scored 75% which is a distinction (or a first in degree terms). The news is still sinking in.
God is good.
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